happy birthday justin. i love you, i love you so much. i don’t think i’ve ever loved or cared about a celebrity this much before. i’ll never forget the first time i heard about you. i’m not going to lie and say i found you on youtube when i didn’t; i was at my friends sweet 16 birthday party and one time started playing, and i was instantly hooked. it’s odd because i don’t usually pay attention to things like that, but something about that song caught my attention. i guess it was kind of like fate, huh? i’ve loved you since you were 15 years old, since i was 16, and now were both 19. i watched you grow from that little kid to the person you are today and in a way, i grew up with you. it’s weird because i don’t know you, i’ve never met you and i’ve only seen you live once, but i feel like i understand you. of course, that’s probably not the case, but it’s what i choose to believe. through these past four years, you and i have both changed and gone through things that have defined who we are. you’re grown up now, and no one can seem to understand that. everything you do gets judged and twisted around because everyone still sees you as this little kid when you’re the farthest thing from that. as time passed, you’ve indirectly helped me through some really hard times, and i’ll never be able to thank you for that, especially since i’ll probably never get to say it to your face. i’ve loved you through your mistakes, i’ve supported you through your relationships and breakups, i’ve stood up for you when things have reached a low point and i’ll continue to do all of this until i can’t do it any longer because you honestly mean so much to me. i know you’ll never see this, but i hope you have the best birthday ever, that is until your next birthday. with all the shit you’ve been through these past few months, with all the stress and stupid bull, you need one day completely dedicated to you because you deserve it. i love you so so so so much :) (i’m so sappy and stupid it shut up i know i’m so embarrassed)